Loss.

Coming on the back of my last post about mortality it became very relevant to me. One of our beloved dogs Marley passed exactly on the Spring Equinox and reading back my post I realise that he had been 'slowing down'. I recall the latter months of his life, there was a 'sadness' in his eyes which I now realise was because instinctively he knew what was happening to his body. He used to gaze out at the field, partly in peace and partly in nostalgia of the days that he had been able to run and trot instead of slowly walk the path. An analogy for life for all of us, when we are younger we 'run at a pace', we don't stop to look around us, we are always in a hurry to 'get to a destination' but as we age our pace slows down, we stop to peruse the scenery because instinctively we know that it or we won't be there for ever. That doesn't mean that everyone who walks slowly are 'on their way out' more that with every death around us we become, or they remind us, that this life is precious, that moments cannot be recaptured, that we never know if we will get to revisit places so we must open our eyes, see the beauty in the moment and 'smell the coffee'. This comes easy for me because I have always liked being an 'observer', Marley was too, it was like 'he took it all in'. Its also why in general I like to stay in different places because there are so many places to see, so many things to do and so little time, in this life, to do it.

So, grief aside, and that grief as I have said before is more of those left behind, our pain is that of the loss of a loved one. The 'dearly departed' are 'free' and out of pain, unburdened by a failing body, yes I believe it hurts them to see us in pain but it also 'warms their heart' that they were loved so well and by so many, sometimes which comes as a surprise to them. If you are experiencing grief of a 'lost' one at this time and are getting flashbacks of them everywhere you go its more a way of them saying to you, 'I'm here, remember when I did this or that' its because they do not want to be forgotten. Me, I smile and say 'Hello Marley' and go on with my day, or speak to him, ask him questions. Either way, I know he is with me, in spirit in many places, at many times loving me, watching me, guiding me, speaking to me, driving me forward to live this life well and long, with no regrets, just joy, like he did.

Til next time, Love, Light and Healing. Mandy xxx