Contemplation

Having had a horrible cold for the last couple of days I have had a chance to 'stop' and review. Its painful as I am generally driven by my Angels to 'keep busy' and if I don't 'They' prod me with the Anxiety Stick. For example, if I stay in bed too long the anxiety seeps in, one negative, doomsday thought after another, some days once one has gone only to replaced by another on another subject, I'm actually coming round to the believe that it is a 'positive' in a weirdly wonderful way because once you establish that in general most anxiety goes away as soon as you get up and get on with things you can actually achieve more, make the most of the day and go to bed satisfied with a good days work. Doing so I am finding I'm 'getting up with the lark', seeing the 'best time of the day' (sorry about all the 'inverted commas' 'they' have 'got a lot to say for themselves today') and frankly nobody knows what the future holds, as we have been reminded with the sad case of Nicola Bulley who serves to remind us of all the people that go missing every day, some never to be found.. I am constantly being reminded by my Spirit Guides and Angels that there are many people in this World (in capitals because I believe very strongly that this World is precious, special and should be 'revered' and cared for as such instead of spending a fortune trying to 'run away' to another planet) who put on outward appearances of being ok who are in fact, not (Stephen 'Twitch' Boss) and that, where we can we should always try to smile and say hello to people because that may make just a small bit of difference in a otherwise harsh and 3D world.

It also struck me whilst being ill, however ill I felt, however awful it was whilst I was ill I was one of the lucky ones who would get better. I was constantly reminded that there are many, many thousands of people and animals going through soooo much worse than I who won't get better, who live daily with debilitating illnesses who have no apparent hope for improvement and yet still smile and 'shine their light'. I have been humbled this week by their bravery and stoicism to stay strong and 'keep fighting'.

My homeopath always said that acute, short term illnesses 'burn off stagnant energy' and particularly in children you often see a 'burst of energy and forward moving action' after an illness, I am 'feeling that', that awful stagnant energy of not being able to do things when ill makes you desperate for the energy to complete tasks and 'start new ones' when you recover. So here I am today, 'back in the saddle' determined to 'move forward'. My husband and I were having a conversation last night about never knowing if this would be the last day of our lives and I retorted immediately, 'if today was the last day of my life I would hate to think I spent it cleaning the bathroom'! So, whilst I'm not condoning leaving the house to get messy I feel there is so much more to be achieved in a day that I'm not achieving. So 'moving forward' and as Spring arrives and we all start to poke our heads through the cold, hard ground like little Daffodils or Snowdrops the word I will aim for, as usual, but hopefully I will have more success this time, is 'balance in everything'. So I am aiming for going to bed feeling that I have 'covered all bases', a little bit of everything in a day and maybe then I will go to bed with a smile on my face and wake with renewed vigour for the next day, God willing. Also, I make this promise to my Angels to 'do my best' to get out of bed on the first prod of the 'Anxiety Stick' and not leave it any longer, I know 'they' don't like having to do it and I certainly don't like 'descending down that rabbit hole'. And lastly, to thank God or whoever you deem to be out there 'watching over you' that you have another day to live for as we know there are many who are unable to do so, so it is behoven on us to live it for all of those that have departed too for they are watching over our shoulders saying 'do it'.

So on that note I will leave, hopefully to talk soon. Mandy, love, light and healing in the name of Jesus xxx